Monday’s with Michael – Alone

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Thank you Michael for this description of what each and everyone in Recovery experiences. This is raw, this is real. Stay Blissful – E

Alone
This weekend I feel all alone, like a little boy with no home.

As hard as I try, I don’t know why, some days I still cry.

I guess I’m full of fear, I’ve been praying all day God, can you hear?,

I’m not mad, maybe a little frustrated, and a little sad, today I really miss my Dad,

I know this too shall pass, I should be more thankful. I’m free at last.

Free from the disease. I continue to fight on, I continue to believe.

I’m truly blessed, I know God loves me, some days are still hard.

That’s just a fact, but I never give up, I stay on track.

Even when I cry, I know I’m healing, dealing with life on life’s terms, feeling my feelings.

I wish I had more friends, I’m really never alone, I’ll have God to the end…

Never Give Up…
Live 2 Love…

Amazing Symbolism of the Number 3

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Photo Credit: Sallie The Cape Lady

The profoundness of the number three is astonishing! There is much I already knew about it and much I have recently learned.

As a mother of three, this number has often peaked my interest. When I was young, I wanted to someday have three children, two boys, and a girl. As fate would have it, I got what I asked for. Each child I have has brought me joy, laughter, and tears. Worth it, everyone!

So I compiled a little research into this number because, while I don’t claim to know everything I do try to anyway. For your reading pleasure:

Biblical Symbolism of the Number 3

  • Three is the number associated with the Godhead, for there are “three persons in one God.”
  • Three times is the blessing given in Numbers 6:23, 24:

“The LORD bless thee and keep thee (the Father);

The LORD make His face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee (the Son);

The LORD lift up His countenance upon thee and give thee peace” (the Holy Spirit).

  • Three is a number of RESURRECTION, for it was on the third day that Jesus rose again from the dead.

Other Religious and Cultural Symbolism of the Number 3

  • Hindu:  creation/destruction/preservation, unfolding/maintaining/concluding
  • Taoist:  Great Triad:  Heaven/Human/Earth
  • From the Buddhist tradition, comes “The Triple Gem” or “The Three Jewels,” which is the Buddha (the enlightened one), the Dhamma (the teachings), and the Sangha (the community of followers).
  • According to the Chinese, 3 is a perfect number;
  • To the Mayan, the sacred number of woman.
  • Egyptians see it as the number of the cosmos.
  • Japanese:  3 Treasures – truth/courage/compassion
  • A tattoo many Latinos get representing their culture and pride in being Latino. The tattoo is formed by three dots in a triangular formation located on the web of the hand between the thumb and index finger. It can also be placed at the bottom corner of one eye. The three dots stand for “Mi vida loca” or “My crazy life”. (Urban Dictionary)

From <http://www.shawlministry.com/significance_of_three.htm>


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Photo Credit: John

In Recovery:

The symbol of the circle and triangle is an ancient spiritual symbol meaning mind, body, and spirit together as one.

In AA, this symbol represents the three parts of the program (recovery, unity, service) which are the solutions to the three-part disease of alcoholism (physical, mental and spiritual). The circle surrounding the triangle represents Alcoholics Anonymous as a whole.

Furthermore, the three below concepts have been shared throughout the Fellowship of Recovery:

We Came

The first action was walking into the Rooms of Recovery. We might not have even heard a word that was spoken that day. But the energy, camaraderie and the spirituality was enough to convince us to keep coming back.

We Came To

This would be the First step. Understanding our Powerlessness and Unmanageability. Though many of us thought we were in control of our lives while in active addiction, we were now able to see how far from the truth this was. Our eyes were finally opened!

We Came To Believe

Yep, it all comes back to God. We came to believe in a Power greater than ourselves. Funny how that works out right?

Today I wish you 3 things: Love, Peace and of course – Bliss!

Stay Blissful My Friends – E

Sunday Shot of Bliss VII.

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Good Times-Bad Times

Enjoy prosperity while you can, but when hard times strike, realize that both come from God. Remember that nothing is certain in this life. – Ecclesiastes 7:14

My faith is not so much in danger when hard times hit. These are the moments I am brought to my knees.  In my anguish, I will say to my God “I can’t do this anymore.” He will softly reply, “Good, now let me handle it.”

But when things are going smoothly, I have to be extra alert to my complacency. Sometimes, when the momentum is strong – so is my ego. EGO = Edging God Out. Such behavior can lead to self-made misery, of which I am a good architect – if I don’t remain spiritually vigilant.


This is evident within my marriage. My husband chose to marry me when I was in the thick of my fight with Gastroparesis. Having lost 65 pounds from starving the prior year and not knowing if this weight loss/starving would end in the near future, he still wanted to marry me.

During this time there were numerous trips to the ER. One night in particular, my husband would tell me a year later he thought for sure I would not be coming home that night. I had no idea what his fears were because he remained so strong. There were nights, after puking my guts out I would find him in the bedroom straightening out the comforter and diffusing peppermint essential oil. There would be a cough drop laying on my pillow waiting for me. This is when our marriage was at its strongest.

Now two years into my remission, we have to pause at times and discuss how we are doing. So used to functioning under difficult circumstances, we now have to get used to living with my good health. It seems to take more work, more vigilance. We both know how worthwhile it is. So we do this because we love each other. Because we are committed.

This takes daily communication. Daily communication with each other. Daily communication with God. Spiritual Vigilance.


Daily communication with God

I am not talking dogma. I am referring to a daily conversation with your God, however it works for you. Some pray on their knees, some in a chair, some in their car. When I think about road trips with my husband, I recognize that these are some of the best conversations we have. So why not with God? Some use prayer beads to keep focus during prayer. Some pray for an assigned length of time and some just go with the flow.  Prayer is personal. Like any other form of communication, it takes practice to find your rhythm. My prayer life is my prayer life and yours is yours. Neither are the same nor are they wrong.

Staying in touch with God daily makes it so much easier to call upon Him when the sh*t hits the fan. (Yes I did use a four-lettered word and no, I don’t think God minds at all.) We can avoid that awkward beginning of prayer “God, I know I only talk to you when things go very wrong, but…” Not that God needs us to pray to him, prayer is for our own benefit. I am fairly certain that God is NOT checking off on a chart each time we pray to him. We are not on a spiritual gold star system.

The other part is in listening for God’s voice or seeking His messages if you will. So many lessons are to be learned from all of His creation if you are truly searching for them. People laugh when I say that God speaks to me through my dogs. “Your dog talks to you?”, my granddaughter once asked. Not exactly. I will see a manner of behavior in them that will remind me of something I need to work on in myself.  Because I am paying attention now. I am asking God to speak to me however He so choses.


All this takes time and practice. A good start:

Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us, and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.

For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.

Amen.

Stay Blissful My Friends – E

Mondays with Michael

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Michael T. Clark has graciously agreed to share his lovely words of poetry on my blog every Monday. Going forth, this day shall be deemed “Monday’s With Michael”. So let it be said, so let it be done. – E

Peace – by Michael T. Clark

As I walk up the mountain all alone,
I realize I’m at peace, this is my inner home,
I hear the insects, the birds, and the trees,
One with nature, this is how I fight my disease,
As the water flows through the stream,
My mind is calm, this must be a dream,
I feel the love pounding in my heart,
So blessed God gave me a fresh start,
The dirt and rocks under my feet, this is the foundation of the Universe that I seek,
My thoughts are so clear, not only do I see the beauty, I can hear,
The wind blows as I travel the path,
My cells are cleansed, like a warm bath,
This is the solitude that I seek,
Thank you life, I’ve found peace…
Live 2 Love…

Stay Blissful my Friends – E